Out of a posture of love and goodness, I’m calling my own bullshit and negating all the lies that have sneakily crept since my ‘soft-launch’ of the Yes And Collective back in October.* The lies that say, ‘Who are you to offer women hope?’ ‘What if people misunderstand you, judge you, or call you a fraud?’ ‘You can’t do anything unless it’s perfect, what if they are typos or grammatical errors in your posts?’ ‘Women are ruthless, you’re a fool for wanting to create a safe space for women!’ ‘Who are you trying to fool? You’re not a woman, you’re just a girl pretending.’
Fear, I silence you! You don’t have the last word, love does! I know who I am and I will launch Yes& even if I’m terrified with all the unknowns. I don’t have to have it all together because I know I am secure in the Father’s love, my identity is firmly grounded in His perfect love and come what may, my stake in the ground is His love!
I’m sitting in the darkness of the early morning with the lights of our Christmas tree illuminating the room. My family is still asleep and after only 5 hours of sleep (we spent New Year's Eve with some newfound friends laughing and cheering in the New Year), I should have gone back to sleep when I roused at 5:30am, but my spirit knew it was time…get up and write.
I willed my reluctant spirit out of a cozy bed because I couldn’t stop my mind from spinning and writing. The truth is, Yes& has been a thing in my head for years and we actually made the site and social media handles live in October, I just never told anyone. I’m chicken, scared to put out there what’s been stirring and brewing. The funny thing is, after producing a film and a show, you’d think I’d be okay with releasing media in another format, but writing to me has always been intimate and vulnerable. I authored a few articles in Relevant Magazine several years ago about the behind-the-scenes of working in Africa and finding your identity in what you do, but I’ve experienced a lot more life since then. This vase of flowers next to me a testimony, ‘Happy 35th!’ Life isn’t slowing down and tomorrow isn’t promised so I better do the thing(s) that make me come alive (no matter how terrifying they seem).
Part of our move to California this year was prompted by a desire to know and experience God on a new level. To catch wind of the more that we saw evidenced as fruit in some of our dearest friends’ lives. In the last couple of years, we’ve come face-to-face with the Spirit of God. I’ve grown up in the Western Church my whole life and it hasn’t been until the last few years that it finally registered, the highest concentration of God on this planet is actually residing within us. Emmanuel, God with us! His Spirit in us-transforming us, speaking to us, guiding us. Some of that more we’ve been wanting is the truth that God is simply in a good mood! A couple months ago, probably October, He reminded me of who I am. I was sitting in our bedroom working on the Yes& site and Dave came out of the bathroom from getting ready for the day and says, “You’re a Badass!” If you were a fly on the wall you’d have seen me grin! He proceeded to tell me that while he was in the shower he had the strong sense that he was supposed to tell me that. You see, what Dave didn’t know was that while he was taking a shower, I was twiddling online and scrolling down Instagram, questioning my ability to have a voice in a world that already has a lot of amazing women. More specifically, I was saying in my head that all the women I was comparing myself were ‘Badasses’ and there was no way people would want what I have to offer. Haha!
God has a sense of humor and He’s always speaking to us, whether it’s in the small voice in our guts, through nature, through things we encounter, or through people that obediently share what they sense. So here’s to a New Year and the official launch of Yes&...Cheers! Yes, I’m reluctant and nervous, & I’m a Badass! You’re a Badass too (I mean that as a term of endearment)! God’s in a good mood and He has incredible things in store for you in 2017! I’m excited to press in and experience life alongside you, the best is yet to come!
Morgan is a storyteller at heart. After running an NGO in Uganda for 7 years, she and her husband, Dave, currently record a weekly podcast called Chasing Unicorns, produce and host The FIND series, run the CB Ideas design agency, and mange Yes& Collective. Morgan also co-authored the newly released children’s book, The Girl Chronicles: A Story of Good. She’s a mom to two middle schoolers, Asher & Jadyn, and so when she’s not driving them around, she fills herself up with yoga, reading, air-popped popcorn, and all things coconut flavored. IG: @MorganHansow & @HansowFamily www.HansowFamily.com