Sacred Spaces

Smack Dab in the Middle

I want to get more comfortable with the tension. With the lack of definition. With the fact that magic and fear can co-exist in my little 10-year-old world, and magic and monotony can co-exist in my bigger 30-something-year-old-world.

Smack Dab in the Middle

The Load

I don’t want to ignore what the loneliness is trying to tell me because the broken places in me need to be dealt with, but I also don’t want the loneliness to overshadow every day in this season.

The Load

Percentages and Margins

and i tried to talk to myself as i would a friend… ”this is a season, it won't always feel like your percentages are completely taken up, you are normal.”

Percentages and Margins

A Map in the Midst

Despite the blurring pain, I always knew that God would use that part of our story to breathe life and hope into others who are also walking through a “detour” season.

A Map in the Midst

When You Walk into the Room

The point isn’t to look for the negatives in the atmosphere but to know that God is excited to be invited into every circumstance and experience and He can shift the entire feeling in a room if you ask Him to.

When You Walk into the Room

It's Okay to Rest

I’ve been thinking a lot about the necessity of seasons and the role dormancy and death plays in life. In order for life to spring forth, something has to be buried or planted or laid down.

It's Okay to Rest

That's Mine

Is it fair to say to your kids or your partner, That’s mine? There’s been a bit of a rub between my family and me when I say this simple phrase.

That's Mine

Taking Flight

In my mind, the story of my last two years (although profoundly precious) has been so deeply painful, that I thought if I completely let go, it would mean that part of my life would be null and void. Dead. Over.

Taking Flight

Herding

Mostly, this perspective of my life helps me keep things light. It is also gives me creative insight into how to parent my children and care for my family.

Herding

The Detour

Hours later, as the sun poked it’s way onto the horizon, I woke up to see that we were still driving. I looked around and quickly noted that we were not where we were supposed to be.

The Detour

What's Your Fifteen?

God inviting me to dream with Him has wrecked me. I will not and cannot go back to being who I was...She was but a shadow, a shell, of who He had intended for her to be!

What's Your Fifteen?

Mom Tribes

at one point, between the blood and tears and pizza and crying, she said "kel, moms just need moms." and it struck me. that's EXACTLY what i need in this season of my life.

Mom Tribes

The Tree First

I would allow myself to slowly seep in this idea of self-absorption, but over time, the untended segments of my soul yielded what was cultivated; self-centeredness.

The Tree First

brave

i often feel very over-stimulated in parenthood ... it’s loud and really messy and i really like things to look pretty and keep looking pretty

brave

Choosing Connection

Why is it that I pull away from the very thing that I desire by chasing after something easier and quicker that only leads me further from what I truly want?

Choosing Connection